Sunday, April 27, 2008


In the past couple of days I have realized the true importance of close friends and family. No matter how you are feeling or acting they take the time to show you just how much you mean to them. And somehow you just know that regardless of what the future holds and what decisions may or may not be made they will stand by you.
Its comforting to always know that you are loved!

Sunday, April 20, 2008


As I lie in bed tonight I find myself wondering how we make decisions in our lives. How do we ever know what truly is the correct choice. Life is so uncertain and yet at times it feels so completely certain. But who's to say which decisions in our lives have led us to become the people we are today.
Currently my brother is struggling with the decision of Cal Poly vs. USC and I see him privately agonizing between the two feeling pulled strongly in both directions. And tonight as we both got ready for bed he asked me what I thought he should do. And of course being that I want the decision to be all his own I didn't exactly answer the question. I think honestly he doesn't have a bad choice but I just hope that whatever he decides he does it for himself.
Through his struggle I have learned that when facing a difficult decision you have to choose whatever is best for you, and you only. You can never be someone or do something for someone else. You must always remain true to yourself.
You must remain true to you regardless of what you win or lose. Stealing the cliche "shoot for the moon because even if you miss you'll land among the stars"
In the end you are the one who has to live with your decisions. So choose wisely and remember you never have to apologize for doing what's best for you!

Family Ties

My family truly is amazing! I am so lucky to have such amazing parents and a wonderful brother and sister. I can only hope that when I begin my own family my children feel the same way about me. And I feel so blessed to know that my children will be blessed with amazing grandparents. But as I said earlier I must not wish time away. So for the time being I am going to concentrate on my own amazing family.
In the past month as my brother decides upon the college where he will spend the next four years of his life my family has had the oppurtunity to go on two weekend vacations. And I have come to the amazing realization at just how amazing my parents and my entire family is.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Speech of a lifetime

While listening to Randy Pausch's final lecture (if you haven't heard it yet find it on you tube) I found myself mesmerized. This man is facing something I wouldn't even begin to know how to handle and he does so with amazing grace. However if I had to take only one thing away from his lecture it would be the advice he gave to his daughter. He said if he could give her one piece of advice it would be when you begin dating "Ignore everything he says only pay mind to what he does."
It seems so simple like something we all know. I mean for as long as I can remember I have always said actions speak louder than words but I don't think I have ever really taken those words to heart. However, from now on in all aspects of my life I am going to repeat that mantra to myself.
Because I think that applies everywhere. I know that I would have realized the problems in my last relationship much sooner if I had repeated that mantra to myself. Words are simply that and they are so easily twisted and manipulated. But actions they are much harder to fake.
If you want something or you want to do something don't talk about it, don't make excuses do something about it. Prove it! Go after what you want and make it happen.
Recently while reading books by my favorite author Nicholas Sparks I was in awe of the amazing surprise acts of love the characters in the book did for their significant others and I realized they were doing just what Randy Pausch said they were showing their love with actions.
Yes I know these people are characters in a book but you know what I've seen it in real life as well. Recently my best friends boyfriend did exactly the same thing for her on Valentines Day. He didn't give the usual flowers, chocolates and a card with a mushy I love you. He took it upon himself to show his love. He rented a hotel surprised her with dinner aboard the Sacramento Riverboat. And you know what through his actions he proved his love. And not for a moment did she doubt his love for her.
So in conclusion from this point forward I am focusing on what is done rather than what is said!

Growing Up...

As I sit in the gym of Cal Poly listening to the welcome from students and faculty encouraging the future students (my brother in particular) I come to the full realization of just how much I have experienced in the past four years of my life. I am sitting in this audience as a college graduate. I have already finished this part of my life I am Adult. I really don't think until this moment I have fully come to that realization. It is so true that whether you want to or not you become an adult.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

One day at a time...

I have realized lately, that I have been living too much in the future. And all we really have is this very moment. I am trying to make a conscious effort lately to take life one day at a time because in reality that's all we can do anyways. There are so many amazing songs out there lately and I have to say music has really been my savior as of late. I find that it can really express my own thoughts and opinions even more clearly than I can. And I swear every country singer is just trying to make me break down into tears. It is so strange to me that things in your life can literally change in one instant. So I have come to the decision that from this moment forward I am going to attempt to cherish each and every moment of the day without wishing it away. Because as Trace Adkins so nicely states "you're gonna miss this," I mean I think back and realize that I am 22 years old. I have already experienced so many things in my life and yet it seems like just yesterday I was graduating from high school. Time really does fly and more than that, it seems to move faster every year.