Sunday, May 25, 2008

Contentment. . .

Its such a strange thing. Some days it seems completely attainable other days it seems completely out of reach. I guess you need to always remember to take things one day at a time because when it comes down to it that is all we KNOW we have.
In reality however the hardest thing for me is being single at 22(23 in 5 days). I had never imagined that being the way things would turn out. Not that I would change anything about the way my life has turned out this far. I have become a stronger person than I ever imagined I would be. But at the sametime when I watch my friends and their boyfriends or husbands I can't help but feel a twinge of jealously at what they have found.
I do realize that all in good time I will find the person I am meant to be with but for the time being I need to focus on school and the other important things in my life. Besides a healthy relationship is two whole people walking side by side not two half people becoming one.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Its hard to believe that no matter how much you may think you know someone the things they are capable of will still continue to shock you. Being a person that falls head over heels in love is an amazing thing however if you get involved with the wrong person it can be terribly detrimental to both parties involved.
I guess the best thing you can learn is no matter what your heart tells you always keep your eyes open. I have found that "love really is blind" so make sure you always take into account the feelings of those around you because nine times out of ten they will see things you are incapable of seeing.
Its important to remember never let yourself become jaded but at the same time always fall in love leading with your head.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

The End Of An Era

Closure its such a strange thing. I recently saw the definite end to a relationship I would have been forever wondering "what if" about. As I sat in the airport and cried I realized that somethings just aren't meant to be. There are things in our life that will never be. And after so long apart people change and grow and its not always in the same direction.
And as much as you may wish for what you once had it is possible it will never be again.
As they say people come into your lives for a reason a season or a lifetime and now after much contemplation all I can say is thank you for being in my life for a reason you taught me how to love and allowed me a safe place to grow. I will always love you and I wish you nothing but the best.


"The fate of your heart is your choice no one else gets a vote"

I found this quote a couple weeks ago and I have realized over the past month the truth to this statement and not just in correlation with everyone else. Sometimes just with yourself. There are times in life when you're head and you're heart will tell you two different things an it is at these times in your life when you must take the time to decide what the correct decision is. People always tell you to follow your heart but I am not going to lie your heart can decieve you! However at the same time you can't follow you're head because love isn't completely rational. So what do you do you may ask? Well you listen to your intuition as a woman this is very strong thing and if you're willing to listen it will always give the "correct" answer.
As we grow up we must realize that you are responsible for yourself and following your intution will allow you to live your life to the fullest potential. You can't worry about the opinions of others and as much as you should avoid causing others any pain you must ultimately be true to yourself because in the end that is the only way you can truly be proud of yourself and the person you become.